They say that your dreams are crazy insane when you're pregnant. Who "they" are, I will never know, but it certainly doesn't help that I had an overactive imagination prior to getting pregnant.
These dreams are just crazy!
The most frequent involves C...and his lack of want to be a Dad (which as you all know...is completely not the case - something I am incredibly thankful for) or his want to leave me behind. I guess you could tally it all up to my own insecurities becoming a new mom, not knowing what to do (where's that manual that these kids are supposed to come with???), how my body will look after this baby and all that comes with it is removed...
There have been many a morning where I wake up all pouty and needy, or angry as a mad-hatter, and C has to suffer the consequences, and although it hasn't happened in quite some time, this morning was no different.
After being startled awake by his alarm at 7:20am, I realized that I was having the most ridiculous dream wherein C was off gallivanting and drinking at this rather large party and apparently took a liking to some blonde. Ahh! In all of my 9 months pregnant glory in the dream, I tried to call him...only to get his voicemail that stated very matter-of-factly that he was not interested in raising a child.
Shock and panic ran through my veins, especially since I couldn't hear the shower or see a light on in the bathroom. Where was he?!
I must have pressed the snooze button and fell back into the dream, as the voicemail seemed to go on forever. I woke up to C running out of the bathroom, shaving cream all over his lovely face saying "sorry honey!! I thought I turned my alarm off!!!"
Talk about a sigh of relief! He didn't leave! (was I really expecting him to...?)
I told him about my dream, he gave me a hug and he reassured me that he wasn't going anywhere...he doesn't even like blondes! Gee, C...thanks for the support!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Happy Birthday, Maggie Mae!
In amongst my anger this morning, I completely forgot what the date is...I'm such a bad mom!
Happy 8th birthday to my snuggle bug, Maggie Mae!
All she wanted to do since I've been home shortly after lunch is snuggle...and well...my nerves are shot so everything that she's going is annoying the crap out of me! Sorry, sugar pie but momma is irritated today!
She did manage to sneak in some snuggle time with Bug when I wasn't paying attention...*sigh* gotta love her
I'm Done
Do you hear me? Done. D. O. N. E. DONE!
Finis. Finito. Kaput. DONE!
Last night we had another 3 hour contraction session from 8:00pm until shortly after 11:00pm. What started out as mild cramping, about 20-30minutes apart grew to strong contractions that made me cry every 6-7minutes...some even down to 5...and a few 2-3minutes apart.
We were geared and ready to go...and then they stopped shortly after 11:00ish. Had it not been raining, I would have gone for a walk, and certainly that would have progressed things as it usually does (I get alot of low cramping while walking), but alas....I didn't want to get soaked by the rain and hailstorm that was upon us.
I was able to get some sleep last night and I think C was able to as well. I had a few more between 11:00 and midnight, but nothing severe enough to mosey to the hospital.
Fast forward to this morning, and I have been cramping and in off-and-on tears since about 8:00am. I dropped C off at work, went and ran my errands and took myself for lunch. Well...now I feel like a bag of crap. Between the sharp low pains and the all over tightness....add in the nausea and dizziness....ugh.
As I am so often reminded by everyone around us, the end is near and I can definitely see the horizon. I think I might scream if I hear “hang in there” or “you’re going to miss being pregnant” or even “relax, you’re still a week away from the first due date that you were given.” Yes yes folks, I’m that pregnant lady...the irate one! I can’t take much more of this! I am at the end of my rope...and cry at the thought of this lasting much longer.
Bug – listen to me.... Get out or you’re going to be grounded, for a very long time! This start and stop labour is crap and it is not a place I like to be in! Your Daddy and I would very much like to meet you, and snuggle you, and bring you home...so stop playing around!
Finis. Finito. Kaput. DONE!
Last night we had another 3 hour contraction session from 8:00pm until shortly after 11:00pm. What started out as mild cramping, about 20-30minutes apart grew to strong contractions that made me cry every 6-7minutes...some even down to 5...and a few 2-3minutes apart.
We were geared and ready to go...and then they stopped shortly after 11:00ish. Had it not been raining, I would have gone for a walk, and certainly that would have progressed things as it usually does (I get alot of low cramping while walking), but alas....I didn't want to get soaked by the rain and hailstorm that was upon us.
I was able to get some sleep last night and I think C was able to as well. I had a few more between 11:00 and midnight, but nothing severe enough to mosey to the hospital.
Fast forward to this morning, and I have been cramping and in off-and-on tears since about 8:00am. I dropped C off at work, went and ran my errands and took myself for lunch. Well...now I feel like a bag of crap. Between the sharp low pains and the all over tightness....add in the nausea and dizziness....ugh.
As I am so often reminded by everyone around us, the end is near and I can definitely see the horizon. I think I might scream if I hear “hang in there” or “you’re going to miss being pregnant” or even “relax, you’re still a week away from the first due date that you were given.” Yes yes folks, I’m that pregnant lady...the irate one! I can’t take much more of this! I am at the end of my rope...and cry at the thought of this lasting much longer.
Bug – listen to me.... Get out or you’re going to be grounded, for a very long time! This start and stop labour is crap and it is not a place I like to be in! Your Daddy and I would very much like to meet you, and snuggle you, and bring you home...so stop playing around!
Monday, May 31, 2010
No Baby...Yet!
Wow...this weekend was sure filled with false alarms and tears.
I guess it all started on Thursday evening at the cocktail event. People were placing bets on who was going to have a baby first...C and I, or another couple from the Club who was expecting their fourth baby. Well...I held out and win wife-of-the-year from everyone at the Club! Diane and Jay had their fourth girl (4th!! holy moly!) on Friday, and unfortunately Jay had to pull out of the tournament (obviously for the very best of reasons.)
Friday after our doctor's appointment, I pretty much relaxed all day, or at least tried to. Every time I moved, I was in pain. The cramping was pretty intense, and made for a very miserable me for the better part of the afternoon. However, it was good to know what I've progressed to 3cm and that things are moving along.
Saturday was absolutely awesome! I went to the spa with four of my really great friends for manicures and pedicures, then we headed to Symposium to sit on the patio and enjoy the sunshine. Oi.....sunshine indeed! I'm not sure how the other three ladies fared, but my back is still burnt to the point where I have to wear a strapless shirt and lather on the aloe every few hours!
It was absolutely awesome to get together with some girlfriends and be....me for once. Not the mom-to-be or the daughter-in-law, or even C's pregnant wife...but me. It was great!
We capped off the night with the fancy schmancy dinner and dance out at the Club and closing ceremonies for the golf tournament. It was great to get dressed up and parade my belly. I probably should have taken a picture, but the positive comments from people were enough to make me smile all night long. From "You're in labour?! Why are you here???!" to "You look beautiful! Are you due later this summer?" and "You're due in 10 days?! You look like you're 6 months pregnant!"....it was great!
Sit down for dinner....queue the contractions. Oh gosh...I wasn't sure how long we were going to make it. I tried so hard to have a brave face, smile and strike up conversation but whew! It was difficult with all of the sharp pains and constant tightness that I was feeling. Poor C was getting hit in the leg every time it happened and had to keep track, but they were consistently 20 minutes apart so we weren't too worried.
What a great "last date night" out with C! He looked so handsome, and I was able to get all dolled up....*sigh* It's going to be a while before that happens again, but obviously well worth it.
Yesterday was a whole different story. I was crampy, emotional....slightly irrational even....and really tired. I spent alot of the day lying on the couch groaning and whining...or bouncing on my yoga ball telling Bug "okay...let's go buddy!!" and the tears seemed to fall at the most random of times. I bet C can't wait for this to be over!
So now...we're waiting! I feel pretty good today, aside from the sunburn, and might even venture out to get some errands done this afternoon. I'd really like to get some daylillies to plant in the gardens and since my energy level is pretty good today...I am confident that I can get them planted before the rain comes tonight. I also need to get a soaker hose for our new cedars, extension cord for the weed whacker, and a wall-mounted hose holder or some other contraption to keep things neat and tidy at the side of the house.
Anything to pass the time, eh?
I guess it all started on Thursday evening at the cocktail event. People were placing bets on who was going to have a baby first...C and I, or another couple from the Club who was expecting their fourth baby. Well...I held out and win wife-of-the-year from everyone at the Club! Diane and Jay had their fourth girl (4th!! holy moly!) on Friday, and unfortunately Jay had to pull out of the tournament (obviously for the very best of reasons.)
Friday after our doctor's appointment, I pretty much relaxed all day, or at least tried to. Every time I moved, I was in pain. The cramping was pretty intense, and made for a very miserable me for the better part of the afternoon. However, it was good to know what I've progressed to 3cm and that things are moving along.
Saturday was absolutely awesome! I went to the spa with four of my really great friends for manicures and pedicures, then we headed to Symposium to sit on the patio and enjoy the sunshine. Oi.....sunshine indeed! I'm not sure how the other three ladies fared, but my back is still burnt to the point where I have to wear a strapless shirt and lather on the aloe every few hours!
It was absolutely awesome to get together with some girlfriends and be....me for once. Not the mom-to-be or the daughter-in-law, or even C's pregnant wife...but me. It was great!
We capped off the night with the fancy schmancy dinner and dance out at the Club and closing ceremonies for the golf tournament. It was great to get dressed up and parade my belly. I probably should have taken a picture, but the positive comments from people were enough to make me smile all night long. From "You're in labour?! Why are you here???!" to "You look beautiful! Are you due later this summer?" and "You're due in 10 days?! You look like you're 6 months pregnant!"....it was great!
Sit down for dinner....queue the contractions. Oh gosh...I wasn't sure how long we were going to make it. I tried so hard to have a brave face, smile and strike up conversation but whew! It was difficult with all of the sharp pains and constant tightness that I was feeling. Poor C was getting hit in the leg every time it happened and had to keep track, but they were consistently 20 minutes apart so we weren't too worried.
What a great "last date night" out with C! He looked so handsome, and I was able to get all dolled up....*sigh* It's going to be a while before that happens again, but obviously well worth it.
Yesterday was a whole different story. I was crampy, emotional....slightly irrational even....and really tired. I spent alot of the day lying on the couch groaning and whining...or bouncing on my yoga ball telling Bug "okay...let's go buddy!!" and the tears seemed to fall at the most random of times. I bet C can't wait for this to be over!
So now...we're waiting! I feel pretty good today, aside from the sunburn, and might even venture out to get some errands done this afternoon. I'd really like to get some daylillies to plant in the gardens and since my energy level is pretty good today...I am confident that I can get them planted before the rain comes tonight. I also need to get a soaker hose for our new cedars, extension cord for the weed whacker, and a wall-mounted hose holder or some other contraption to keep things neat and tidy at the side of the house.
Anything to pass the time, eh?
Friday, May 28, 2010
The Belly
I almost forgot to post these! I'm starting to slowly freak out about the aftermath of the belly...how will it ever go down? Will it look "normalish" or will it be all saggy and disgusting?
I lost so much weight in the 1st trimester that I have no clue that I will weigh once Bug's born...I'm still down 13lbs. from when we got pregnant, so that's good to think about...but it causes me some anxiety as well! Considering that there is a 7ish lb. baby in me, plus fluid and placenta...and Lord knows bigger boobs...I an anxious to see what the post-baby number is on the scale!
Here's the belly of which I speak!
And my view down...Gosh!
Baby Watch 2010
That's right! The mess-up of an appointment turned out to be a blessing in disguise...we got great information this morning at our appointment!
I didn't sleep very well at all last night...tossing and turning, up almost every hour to go to the bathroom...lots of cramping, and a little bleeding as well. Was it ever worth it!
Bug's heart rate - 140bpm
Momma's blood pressure - 100/68
Weight gain - 0!
Crown to Rump measurement - 39cm...yup! He grew 2cm in a week, without me gaining a pound! No wonder I've been so miserable in the past week!!
Now for the best part - more dilation! Dr. Leslie had the honour of doing the internal today and I am about 3cm dilated at this point, still fully effaced and both we heard the best words ever.
Any. Day. Now.
That's right! We're officially on Baby Watch 2010!
We booked our next appointment for next Friday, though Dr. Jordan doesn't think we will make it that far, and C is anticipating a Sunday or monday baby.
I didn't ask about a stretch&sweep, or induction either. I figure at this point...it's out of my hands, it's still early, and I am certainly strong enough to last a few more days. Godmomma and MommaT are not anywhere near me, and I really want them to be here when Bug arrives. C's in the golf tournament at the club this weekend, and we have the big dinner and dance tomorrow night - it might be our last chance at a little adult date night where I can get dressed up.
And I have the spa tomorrow! Momma needs pretty fingers and toes!
I didn't sleep very well at all last night...tossing and turning, up almost every hour to go to the bathroom...lots of cramping, and a little bleeding as well. Was it ever worth it!
Bug's heart rate - 140bpm
Momma's blood pressure - 100/68
Weight gain - 0!
Crown to Rump measurement - 39cm...yup! He grew 2cm in a week, without me gaining a pound! No wonder I've been so miserable in the past week!!
Now for the best part - more dilation! Dr. Leslie had the honour of doing the internal today and I am about 3cm dilated at this point, still fully effaced and both we heard the best words ever.
Any. Day. Now.
That's right! We're officially on Baby Watch 2010!
We booked our next appointment for next Friday, though Dr. Jordan doesn't think we will make it that far, and C is anticipating a Sunday or monday baby.
I didn't ask about a stretch&sweep, or induction either. I figure at this point...it's out of my hands, it's still early, and I am certainly strong enough to last a few more days. Godmomma and MommaT are not anywhere near me, and I really want them to be here when Bug arrives. C's in the golf tournament at the club this weekend, and we have the big dinner and dance tomorrow night - it might be our last chance at a little adult date night where I can get dressed up.
And I have the spa tomorrow! Momma needs pretty fingers and toes!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Ridiculousness
I very much wish I had a better post for today. I very much wish I had news of progress. I very much wish that I had something positive to say.
I don't.
All I can say is that I am incredibly angry at the receptionist at the dr's office this morning. We had a prenatal appointment scheduled for 11:30am, which was booked with the lovely receptionist that I adore last Friday. Apparently, it wasn't put into the calendar and the rude receptionist this morning was little to no help whatsoever.
Seriously! I'm standing in front of her, clearly disappointed and frustrated...hot as all heck...about ready to drop a baby...and all she can say is that lovely-receptionist "makes mistakes"?! Really?! Way to throw your colleague under the bus and not fix the situation!
I even pulled out my appointment reminder card, since usually our appointments are Friday's and we had to switch to Thursday this week because I wanted to make sure C could be there and it wouldn't compromise the golf tournament that he's in this weekend. I thought maybe we had mixed up the days and really booked for Friday instead of Thursday. Nope...we booked for today.
I don't have a single positive thing to say about today. I woke up feeling rested and good and not super crampy, and now I am miserable as all hell.
And now I feel like I'm going to throw up...beautiful
I don't.
All I can say is that I am incredibly angry at the receptionist at the dr's office this morning. We had a prenatal appointment scheduled for 11:30am, which was booked with the lovely receptionist that I adore last Friday. Apparently, it wasn't put into the calendar and the rude receptionist this morning was little to no help whatsoever.
Seriously! I'm standing in front of her, clearly disappointed and frustrated...hot as all heck...about ready to drop a baby...and all she can say is that lovely-receptionist "makes mistakes"?! Really?! Way to throw your colleague under the bus and not fix the situation!
I even pulled out my appointment reminder card, since usually our appointments are Friday's and we had to switch to Thursday this week because I wanted to make sure C could be there and it wouldn't compromise the golf tournament that he's in this weekend. I thought maybe we had mixed up the days and really booked for Friday instead of Thursday. Nope...we booked for today.
I don't have a single positive thing to say about today. I woke up feeling rested and good and not super crampy, and now I am miserable as all hell.
And now I feel like I'm going to throw up...beautiful
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